Friday, November 30, 2012
hai.. i think the reason ive been writing here a lot lately is because things that happened lately are too crazy.
people judge, a lot.
and i really dont want to tell anyone? except prolly wong, jason, jenson and my sis.
im really grateful that my sis is supportive, i would have killed my parents if i just shock them with all this shit and sis is not there to cushion those impacts.
i need to let all this all out.
keep mum is not a good thing i learnt? like rls w ky.
i really never expect us or our rls to turn out like this.
im still refusing to tell anybody what actually happened, thats probably the last thing i can do for him.
i still amazed myself, how i managed to let everything go. literally.
hm was like saying like aft i broke up w ky, i didnt cared about anything at all.
so i just quit my job.
i need a new life.
well, thats the time everything good happened.
i got a new job.
some small exhibition firm, as a chief designer.
HA HA HA, until now it sound ridiculous to me. but its ok, i get my job done, and i get my pay, and i get to travel and buy my chanel.
i got a new bf.
i can't be more grateful for your appearance in my life. (thou u will never get to see this part or, even u manage to find this, u wont understand. HA HA HA)
thank you for being that even crazier jealous aquarius bf,
i think i can never thank you enough for all the things that you've done for me.
really.
5:45 PMdont scare me with surprises like that?
i know you meant well but please respect that i've got a job too and that i cant keep taking leaves?
i know i dont make as much as you do, but i would like that i can afford the things i wanna buy?
im going mauritius aft sh.
5:08 PM<3 skyping chinaboy.
always have the urge to shift there pronto when i see his stupid adorable face on the screen. HA HA HA HA HA
i feel very nervous whenever he talks about houses, car, anything that associate w marriage or marriage itself.
i really think he's on the verge on proposing?
LIKE REALLY?
i mean, im that sort of crazy woman la..
but this is a whole new level of craziness.
i told him if he dare to ask my dad, i'll marry him.
totally betting on the basis that he wouldn't dare, yet.
WALAO. im feeling damn nervous again.
12:01 PMWednesday, November 28, 2012
lz got confused over the dates im heading over and bought the wrong air ticket.
wong says this is a scam, just a way to extend my stay there.
ok yay.
4:42 PMTuesday, November 27, 2012
chnboy at work. :)
2:32 PMwong says im in too much shit before, so now i find whatever chnboy do sweet.
really meh?
what if he's really that sweet and im just too damaged?
im still as much drama as i was.
maybe a lil toned down as nobody's here to give me the attention i was trying to get,
lol.
i also still enjoy talking to myself pretty much, like now.
its always good to have some self checks, that kept some sanity in me.
why dont he ask me about the xmas tree i bought?
i want to talk about the xmas tree.
its 5 feet and green, lol. sound like im describing myself. i would like to believe that im taller than the tree.
its gonna be pretty, and very colourful.
well, it has to be? aft the dark and gloomy shit i took the whole year i deserve some colour on my tree.
about shifting to sh,
walao.. i know im not shifting like pronto, but weighing of pros and cons alone is killing me.
apart from jason being there, i have no other friends (lz's friends no count).
i can hardly read chinese.
i cant write chinese.
i got problem comprehending cheem chinese
i will die if i take train and i cant take bus, so cab everywhere?
i hate cold. dry is okay.
no bar chor mee.
no thai food.
i will be home alone when lz travel for work, which is often, and im scare of being
alone at home.
lz will make me do house work, coz he prolly find it funny, and he has a cleaning auntie.
no spontaneous mj w lonelyfour.
no spontaneous batam/jb/kl trips.
no spontaneous any trip.
no chicken rice, even thou i dont really enjoy chicken rice?
i will get fat.
i might adopt a weird accent, which will be a combination of singlish and teh chinese.
no weird singapore programmes on tv.
no noi + ying, even they promised to skype me.
no lonelyfour.
no wongbanana.
okay, im about to cry now.
how, chnboy cant shift, then i'll have to go. HOW.
im quite surprise almost everyone is okay/happy/encouraging w my intention of shifting over.
WHAT DID LZ FEED EVERYONE W
even sister and heming are his spies now. WTF
11:01 AMMonday, November 26, 2012
<3
4:28 PMleave approved, and im heading sh in a month's time!
was discussing w chnboy yest about plans for the coming holidays,
thats when i realised his intention of NOT spending my birthday w me in sg (which he made the point of china people do not care much about birthday, unless u are old like.. 70?).
so i sort of educated him the part that singaporeans are pretty much a pretentious bunch that loves festivals and occasions that have to do with gifts.
he went on to ask me about duan wu jie. ...
then i told him young singaporeans do not care about ba zhang, which at this point, he already got what i meant by pretentious. hahaa
and i went on to make a fuss and wanted him to buy me a pink bmw, which he fucking agreed and aiya i really dont know his limit la.
pink bmw aside, i will be seeing alot of him!
dec-jan in shanghai
jan in sg
feb in changchun
elated. :))
10:35 AMTuesday, November 20, 2012
mayb like what she said, its not a good idea at all.
now im fucking suffering the consequences.
somebody please kill me this instance.
KNNNNBBB.
procrastination, i should totally bought more coats.
now where in singapore can i buy chio clothes that will suffice in -20deg?
i cringe at the thought of FUCKING -20deg.
MAYB ITS ALSO A BAD IDEA.
T.T
ogay im too much drama.
buy next month in sh. sheesh
5:11 PMsleep, i love you and i miss you.
our short, interrupted unions are too haste, much too haste.
when will we get to go the distance again?
9:55 AMMonday, November 19, 2012
back to hot, humid, harsh reality.
its amazing how life works out.
its just barely 2 months my heart got eaten out, having only tears' companion at night.
and now,
just home,
and about to crawl 2353 miles back into that bugger's arms.
ldr. not easy i think, got to keep telling myself (and him) the momentary split is for a beautiful reunion.
so december, wont you be kind to me and come faster than you already are?
3:57 PMTuesday, November 06, 2012
last 视频, see you tmr :)
im no longer upset that i've left 10AM,
prolly because those awesome people are no longer my colleagues, but awesome family that i still see almost every other day.
im grateful. :))
9:53 AMMonday, November 05, 2012
i think i make alot of decisions out of anger.
why am i such an angry person?
oh wells,
so much stuffs to clear before i head off to sh,
and oh, did i mentioned that the trip was shortened? :(
why are you
why are you always scolding me,
why don't you eat food that i like,
and why are you always falling asleep on me.
2 more days k?
rawrrr
10:42 AMFriday, November 02, 2012
im sho fucking sleepy,
can anybody actually get this sleepy?
blew my wallet on a pile of winter clothes yesterday.
wt says im gonna cold die there coz apparently what i bought will not suffice in keeping me warm.
gg
i dont think im really mad w chnboy,
just wanna make my stand clear.
well, 4 more days.
10:57 AMThursday, November 01, 2012
see you in 5 days :)
1:48 PM