Saturday, December 16, 2006
my heart almost stopped when he said he feels that i am over reacting..
how much faith was lost and how much integrity i swallowed.
i'm in great pain.
he could be nochalant about all these.
these hurt so much that i couldn't sleep.
this is too painful for me to bear.. and i wonder how long i can handle till i take my leave.
i'm sorry that i love u.
5:18 AMSunday, December 03, 2006
i have nothing to blog bcoz i've a fucked up life.
i wanted to end my blog and end my life.
i really just want to die.
i want to go visit my boss.
who is in the hospital after an operation to remove cancer.
damn poorthing.. and her daughter is still so young.
i rather i'm the one that tio cancer.
at least i can kill myself and die (i got a reason to.) and people won't say that i'm selfish.
i'm damn sad i can't commit suicide.
"think about ur family. think about people that love u. u can't be so selfish.."
i hate my life.
8:36 PM