Wednesday, January 28, 2009
him and him and him.
thats alot alot alot to think about.
2:48 AMSunday, January 25, 2009
im typing these while people are counting down to the end of my birthday.
thats
thanks for coming at 6am with an oreo cheesecake and a sandwich. im really happy. =))
happy cny.
11:59 PMhappy birthday to me. i seriously feel i damn old now.
i dun really like birthdays.. erm i like birthday but i dun enjoy it. hmmm.. nevermind.
girls came over with a sara lee and daddy insisted i have a kway neng ko for a birthday cake. so....... yes. 4 cakes this birthday. =))
maybe i blog again later............ eat mac breakfast.
4:16 AMTuesday, January 20, 2009
2 more weeks.
u seemed thinner.. haven you been eating well?
11:25 PMSaturday, January 17, 2009
its confusing but good coz confusing is not sad.
its uneasy and weird too, but these will go away soon, im sure about it.
and i can smile and attend your commissing ball.
good gut feeling about emirates. =))
thou almost everybody is skeptical about how i look in uniforms. dar!
club hopping last night was awesome in companion of rong and isk.
=))
11:31 PMMonday, January 05, 2009
i though i was okay, i sounded okay and i looks okay.
but if im that okay why i can't sleep?
i slept at 7 this morning and i wake up at 10 in the same morning.
and now i still can't sleep.
im working tmr and work is scary. ikea is scary. the whole entire building breathe of him.
i cannot work there anymore.
i cannot.
i can't.
and he called.
and i thought, okay im doing well.
i am not.
i cried. and i haven cry for so many days.
what?
1:00 AMSunday, January 04, 2009
as my friends thought either im coping it well or not coping it well and putting on a false front, im neither.
i hardly thought of yy for the past few days actually.
i was really busy thinking about other least important things.
thinking about yy is painful.
its not a bf i lost, its a wholelot of memories and future.
even now, i believe i should be glad we broke up because.. our love is not strong enough to kill alot of problems.
i might be skeptical about this love thing. but i still believe somewhere out there this kinda love exists. just that the chance of people getting it is like 342/10000.
i still hope i'll be one of the 342.
my mum threw all the flowers he gave me. one social night and 2 valentines worth.
im not sad. i don't know why.
i think im in denial and lets see how far this denial thing can bring me.
2:38 AM