Tuesday, March 27, 2012
i hate insecurities. thats why i make sure im in control all the time, or at least most of the time.
i know ive got eating disorder. im actually happy, coz im in control, at least for my weight. im not like you, self loathers who sit and eat and continue to wallow in self pity. im glad im doing smth about it.
its nt easy telling urself this is okay. heartburns are frequent, indigestion is always there.. and its increasingly hard to get food stay in me. i keep telling myself, its worth it.
you ask me, why torture myself.
tts because u dont know me.
if u take away my strength, why dont u just kill me?
the latter is actually better.
12:02 AM