Friday, December 23, 2005
how i wish i've got something happy to write here since christmas is ard the corner and everybody is happy.
everybody except me.
i'm stuck at home, due to gastric infection and always feel shitty (yes shit.) and sleep alot coz of the drugs.
i tried to be happy. but how can i when i have to eat meal supplements and 7 kinds of drugs before every meal (if u consider plain porridge and supplements as meal.)
i understand that work is inevitable and u really dunhave time for me but all i was looking forward to is just a call of concern to let me know i am not going thru this alone.
but everytime u just have to make everything else sounded more important than me.
and when my friends really care and asked. u accuse them of telling me things i shouldn't adhere to or i shouldn't even mixed around with them.
i really have no idea how to go on.
fyp's already my biggest nightmare and i don't want you to turn into another one.
sometimes, don't just simple mindedly take things as what it is on the surface.
its still happening even if u didn't realize.
and don't use "i don't know ma" as an excuse as it normally just show your ignorant.
grow up.
and when u promised something, make sure you deliver it.
12:15 AM